How important is being lectured when I learn more about my interest by actually being involved? I don't understand why school has to be so stressful and demending when in reality is not really preparing us for much. I mean what ever job I do end up doing, I know for sure it won't require 100 pages of reading per night.
I just want to make a difference. I want to have an impact on others. I want to set an example. Yet how do I go about these things? Especially when I feel as if everything I do is wrong. I try harder than I should, but its because I really want to change someone's life or perspective for the better. And not my better, but their idea of what is good or right for them.
Yet I find myself so eager to please others that I forget about pleasing myself, which often leaves me unhappy. Always thought that I would need someone in my life, such as a man to make me feel significant. But I have come to realize that I can make myself feel significant and I have my friends to help me do the same. I think they count more than any guy, no matter how bad I want to cuddle. lol :D
But that's besides the point. I mean I feel as many things we have to deal with in school are irrelevant to anything in our lives. And think we only have ONE life, and its not about all this money making angery corporate people junk. It's about real life, feelings, sincere happiness and love. What has the meaning of life changed so much?
