Lately, I have not been myself. I feel that I am slowly slipping away and pushing people away from me. I know that my inner demons are dealing with many things at one time but I can't quite put my hand and which of these demons is making me so frustrated with my life. I feel hopeless and useless and as if I am on cliff, ALONE, just waiting for the right moment to jump. In that moment that I jump, I fantasy that someone will catch me, no matter how long I have been falling for, but I feel that those hands will let me slip right through. It's not easy dealing with so much, and I am such in a slump when it comes to school. I'm losing my drive and the purpose of why I am studying. I feel that if I want to make a change and enjoy my life, I don't need book experience, I need hands on experience. I just don't know whats the whole point any more.
There is so much negativity in the world, and people are going through so much more than I am yet I feel so bad. I know that I have much to be thankful for yet I can't help but feel this way. Many people say that its the sophomore slump, and many people go through it...maybe...its just life. I want to change this and I want to be able to be someone better, but how do I fix it. How do I change all of it? I guess I'll figure it out eventually.
